Thankful

So I remembered last night at almost 1:00 AM that I hadn't checked the mail for a few days. So I put on my boots and coat and walked out to the mailbox. It occurred to me, as I was walking through my complex in the middle of the night, how thankful I am to live in a neighborhood safe enough for me to do this.
I've lived in a lot of cities. My mom couldn't keep an apartment to save her life. We moved every year without fail, if not sooner. I can't tell you how many times I came home from school to see the bright yellow eviction notice on the door. Trust me, it's not fun. And being just a kid there wasn't a thing I could do about it either. I didn't understand at the time that my mom was just NOT CAPABLE of being an adult. She didn't care about anything or anyone but herself, even now at almost 53, she is still this way. But I digress...
The point is, I've lived in a lot of places, there have been places where I was scared to walk alone, EVER, let alone in the middle of the night. This is the only city that I've ever felt at home in, safe in. That's why it's the only city I'll buy a house in. I want my kids to have that same safe feeling every day. I never want them to step outside and have the urge to run back inside cause its safer.
I'm not saying this city is perfect, because I know it has its faults just like every city, but I love it here. Lucky for me, Tracy agrees! :)

2011 Top 5 List

To steal a term from the boob nazi... these are the guys that I'd totally give up my morals for this year. (Not really, but it makes me sound naughtier than I'll ever be. Seriously. I'm good, I swear!)
#5- Joseph Gordon-Levitt

While he'll always hold a special place as the long haired alien in Third rock from the sun, he's also totally adorable. I loved him in 10 things I hate about you and in Inception he proved he's all grown up now. I love it!
#4- Jared Padalecki

He's a recent addition to my list. I never really "got" what girls saw in him until I caught an episode of Supernatural one morning. I've watched the show since it started but missed all of season 4. Anyways there was this one episode and it just clicked! He's totally hot!
#3- Ashton Kutcher

I started watching that 70's show reruns and I forgot how funny that show was! He's totally hilarious as the dim-witted Kelso (ironically what one of my friends calls me) and I caught a few movies that he's been in and voila he's back on the list!
#2- Jensen Ackles

I heart him. His face, his deep voice, the "smoulder" I love it.
#1- James Lafferty





He's totally one of those guys that is just getting hotter as he gets older. I know that part of my "crush" on him is the character he plays. I'm a sucker for a good husband and father. ;)
But, alas, not only am I totally married (cause thats the only reason we could never happen HAHAHA. Sarcasm people. It's a unappreciated art form.) he's currently dating Bono's daughter. Who can compete with Bono's daughter?? Bono's other daughter maybe?

Anyways. There you have it. The 5 actors who I'm crushing on this year. Honorable mentions go to Daniel Radcliffe (but only when he's playing Harry Potter) Rupert Grint (I love gingers), Ryan Reynolds (newly single!!) and Ian Somerhalder (mmm vampires are yummy)